This is first one, I don't even know if there will be more.
I'm surrounded by people and yet i feel alone. Am i really this lonely or is this just me bringing myself again. I'm not sure, maybe I'm just a fatalist and can't see the forest for the trees, but everything good that happens seems to be followed by a bigger wave of shit. Shitluck or Murphy luck either way I guess I'm screwed. The bad just seems to outweigh the good more and more these days. I hope for better and it's horrible to say but I have NO faith things will get better. I don't want to sound jaded or bitter but as i get older I feel like there is less and less I can do to change the world for the better. It's not one thing it's life overall, but I guess alot of people feel that way these days. It just seems that every Generation cares less and less about the world which leaves me no hope for tomorrow. I'm sure there are people that care but they are so few and far between that I can't see a bright future.I just feel like saying FTW and being done with it. I love my family and friends but on the the whole I just don't care and it worries me. I know that's not the right course of action to take nobody else seems to care either. I know i have nothing to offer but i just hope someone does. PLaying music can't save the world. if it could John Lennon would've done it, since that didn't work I'm at a loss. I've met amazing people from all over the world living in Chapel Hill and wouldn't trade that for the world... but I feel more and more that we have become Rome and this nice little life we've created for ourselves is coming to an end. We've squandered what was given to us with greed and selfishness so that now we're left the end. I have no faith or hope that things will get better. Maybe I just see the glass half empty. I wish more than anything I had a better outlook on life but I guess that's the way I'm programmed
